Sorry, there was and is a good reason not to write. I'm lost and satisfied.

And then you notice that the excuses that worked fine for years don't work anymore. That there is no one more fascinating, attractive and mysterious. She got you. Without notice and a chance to escape. Bright light and absolute darkness. You try to gain distance and DCTP hits you with Pandora. Isolde. Elisabeth von Thueringen. Carmen. Mata Hari. Evita. You don't reach her for days and then she appears in front of your door at 2 am with a look on her face that's impossible to describe. You try to get closer and she escapes. You try to escape and she comes closer. Fuck Niklas Luhmann. I hate you. I love you.

Meanwhile in popular media, value-free and arguable that is, surface not substance: After spending years of preferring obscure Kompakt things and trying to define existence at strange court yard cellar parties i now start to tend back to fly girls and nice beats: Dr. Dre's Truth Hurts (via malorama), The Neptunes (It's getting hot in here...); Irv Gotti (Ja Rule, Ashanti). The woman in this margarine commercial is incredible (Boom, stuck again in the previous paragraph, same glance, different colour, just that she wouldn't leave them for no reason, but because she likes to, not because of butter, whatever...). The new Real ONE Player is the best Windows video player around, for .mov's, dvd's and all the rest.

The best thing about the TV coverage of Germany's election was Josef Joffe on CNN, seeming like Lodown's Jeremy Klutz. At the studio. At the SPD headquarter. At the CDU headquarter. On a hallway. He also did a decent show at Die Zeit Matin�e with Harald Schmidt (via euroranch, listen or download here, in german. ...I'll cancel your subscription ... no matter how tiny it is...). The new Lodown site is definitely worth a visit, especially the fashion section (Doggystyle, Wrestling, Mulholland Drive...), Ambush and FM.

What was amusing, very: Peter Praschl's Hornby Serbs and via eleph.antville.org: www.zombo.com and Ramzi Feiss. Also: Im Sumpf, wir sind zwei arme Pestaerzte...

Working with the CCC and BMW on the new Blinkenlights project was wicked. But still looking for someone who grasps, supports and finances this. Persil Liquid vielleicht.